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Locked Up (Entry#00038)

you were so unfair

you shut me out completely

didn’t even hear me out

made myself vulnerable

told you how much i loved you

yet it’s nothing to you

you made up your mind

not wanting me to be part of your life

what did i do wrong?

everynight i get no sleep

sadness creeping in

you wont leave my heart in peace

take this pain away

take it all

set me free

-changdroid

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Love far away

I’m not wishing for a perfect love,

I know every relationship has struggles in it.

I just want one man who will stay with me through thick and thin.

You make me feel so alive,

I see you as my guiding light.

My heart never stops pounding

everytime our gazes locked in.

Your smile makes me wonder,

How did I become so lucky?

Living in different time,

Everyday wishing you are with me.

But life goes on for both of us.

I live with a picture of you in my mind and your love i place in my heart and hold so close dear.

Two hearts beating as one,

making each other as their strength.

For one day, they will meet and

Hearts will flutter and pure love will come sweeping.

Wishing the heavens you are the right one

for I dont want to let you go this lifetime.

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Melancholy of a selfish girl

I never thought I’d be such a cruel person.

I led you on. I never thought that I will fall in love with you and it will come to this.

And now I am going to leave you, without even explaining what happened.

I can’t bear to tell you all of this. I don’t want to hurt you. I’m sorry but I am a bad person for doing this.
The first time we met, it was all an accident. It was funny that we became friends. Hit it off together like we knew each other all along.

Then all of a sudden you confessed that you liked me. I was flattered. I told you i liked you too but i was in a daze.

I never thought i would like you, you were not my ideal man. You smoke and drink and party every night. A social butterfly they said..

I accepted you anyway, you were so kind and loving. Time passed and i know i am liking you so much now.

I am selfish, i don’t want to get hurt by you and I don’t want to hurt you too so while its not that too deep,  i’m going to leave you.

 

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Under the street lamps

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You were standing in the doorway

looking so perfectly fine as I have always imagined

I felt my heart skipped a beat for a moment

never thought that you will come.

You smiled at me,  it was sweet and  shy.

and like always, you took my breath away.

We talked the whole night,

remembered the times we spent together.

we didn’t notice that the time passed by so quickly

when we were together, it was all perfect.

It was time for us to say goodbye again.

We’re quietly walking under the street lamps and I felt your warm hands holding mine  

I stopped and turned to look at you, seeing you were already gazing at me.

You pulled me in for a moment and gave me a lingering kiss,  

I am breathless and I wanted it to last. Hoping for us not to part forever.

 

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You and I

You came into my life when I was too broken, I never thought i’d get to know how does love felt again.

You broke down the walls I had in my heart then let yourself build me up again, and made me into a stronger person I am today.

You never failed to amaze me everytime, your love for your family and hardwork. Everything about you is so admirable.

You let yourself be vulnerable with me, told every good and bad memories and even trusted me with your deepest secrets.

You were my breath of fresh air, and you’ve always reminded me everyday that you love me.

I was always thankful for everything you did to me, I felt love when I needed it the most.

I never thought I’d open my heart into someone so far from me, but I did. I give you my trust and my heart.

I did not want to commit myself fully to you even though I’m falling in love with you because I don’t want you to get hurt.

I did not trust myself enough to love you, and I feel like I took your love for granted, I’m sorry. I regret it.

I am longing to be with you, I am missing you and I will always be loving you.

Now you have someone new, I really thought I will be fine with it.
but that moment when you told me the truth made me realize that “this will hurt”.

And now, it really hurts.. but I love you.

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