Locked Up (Entry#00038)

you were so unfair

you shut me out completely

didn’t even hear me out

made myself vulnerable

told you how much i loved you

yet it’s nothing to you

you made up your mind

not wanting me to be part of your life

what did i do wrong?

everynight i get no sleep

sadness creeping in

you wont leave my heart in peace

take this pain away

take it all

set me free



Love far away

I’m not wishing for a perfect love,

I know every relationship has struggles in it.

I just want one man who will stay with me through thick and thin.

You make me feel so alive,

I see you as my guiding light.

My heart never stops pounding

everytime our gazes locked in.

Your smile makes me wonder,

How did I become so lucky?

Living in different time,

Everyday wishing you are with me.

But life goes on for both of us.

I live with a picture of you in my mind and your love i place in my heart and hold so close dear.

Two hearts beating as one,

making each other as their strength.

For one day, they will meet and

Hearts will flutter and pure love will come sweeping.

Wishing the heavens you are the right one

for I dont want to let you go this lifetime.


Under the street lamps


You were standing in the doorway

looking so perfectly fine as I have always imagined

I felt my heart skipped a beat for a moment

never thought that you will come.

You smiled at me,  it was sweet and  shy.

and like always, you took my breath away.

We talked the whole night,

remembered the times we spent together.

we didn’t notice that the time passed by so quickly

when we were together, it was all perfect.

It was time for us to say goodbye again.

We’re quietly walking under the street lamps and I felt your warm hands holding mine  

I stopped and turned to look at you, seeing you were already gazing at me.

You pulled me in for a moment and gave me a lingering kiss,  

I am breathless and I wanted it to last. Hoping for us not to part forever.



You and I

You came into my life when I was too broken, I never thought i’d get to know how does love felt again.

You broke down the walls I had in my heart then let yourself build me up again, and made me into a stronger person I am today.

You never failed to amaze me everytime, your love for your family and hardwork. Everything about you is so admirable.

You let yourself be vulnerable with me, told every good and bad memories and even trusted me with your deepest secrets.

You were my breath of fresh air, and you’ve always reminded me everyday that you love me.

I was always thankful for everything you did to me, I felt love when I needed it the most.

I never thought I’d open my heart into someone so far from me, but I did. I give you my trust and my heart.

I did not want to commit myself fully to you even though I’m falling in love with you because I don’t want you to get hurt.

I did not trust myself enough to love you, and I feel like I took your love for granted, I’m sorry. I regret it.

I am longing to be with you, I am missing you and I will always be loving you.

Now you have someone new, I really thought I will be fine with it.
but that moment when you told me the truth made me realize that “this will hurt”.

And now, it really hurts.. but I love you.



Love Letters

Dear _________,

I’m sorry for what I am about to do, I don’t know if you’ll like it but since you are going to leave soon, I think I should let you know how I truly feel for you.

It all started from just a “Crush” back when we were still freshmen in college. We were classmates, you were such an eye candy and i can’t help myself from looking at you. I thought that you were so cool when you became our classroom president. From that moment on, i have always been drawn to you.   At first, i thought it’s not that serious. But then, I realized that I really liked you a lot.

Back then when you were still my crush, I love how our classmates have been teasing us. We became that famous “love team” that everyone finds amusing. I remembered that time when we used to review for our exams together, we’re telling stories about our families to each other, when we went to our friends house and on the way you slept on my shoulders while riding the bus. It just felt so nice.

The people around us and our friends loved our chemistry together, specially when we were bickering with each other. they thought we were natural, like we can be a real couple, they thought they saw that “spark”between us.

I though so too! 😦    but it was all a dream for me.

when you became an official couple with one of our classmates, i thought i’ll never get affected about it. I told myself that i’ll forget about you easily but guess what?  i did got affected and was not able to forget at all. it became more unbearable when I saw that you were happy with her.

I asked my self..   Is what i’m feeling still CRUSH? or is it something ELSE.

though deep down inside my loving heart.. I know that it has grown into something else.

I have come to realize that  I fell in love with you…

-one sidedly


Your friend,



This  is just the first part of my letter that was sent to a special person in my life. I’ll post the next part of it on my next posts. 🙂

It took me a lot of courage to send this letter of confession to a person I love . I know that some of you might think of it that it was a silly or dumb idea. but for me i think it is best to be true to yourself, true to your feelings, whether he/she accept it or not, just letting someone know that you love them is a good feeling.  ❤


PS. I still love you

any comment or opinion is welcome.